omg…

omg… so long i din’t blog in here…seems like 2 weeks and so… im like out of date… *sniff* sigh… my midterm exams i screwed up… like usual… *double sigh* 1st exam was RIGHT after the midterm holidays… it was on 1st of july if im not mistaken… and guess what… 98% of us didn’t study.. most of us forgot about it!! oh dear…!! Gosh with my little nervous system pumping my blood towards my little heart made me feel nervous and i knew i will fail for that test!!

for the very 1st time i didn’t study for a test in college.. and during the moment i held my pen and wrote down what my poor little memory can remember… it came out nothing!! all of us did last minute studies which consists of only 4 hours and from chapter 2 to 6… so sad..and disappointing of me.. i felt useless when i sat for that test.. not only that, i guessed my luck ran out.. since melissa was not there sitting next to me, i have no one to copy… unlike all my friends behind me… all of them with their quick hands and sharp eyes copy each other thus, they even took out their notes and copy blindly.. leaving me alone infront no one to refer to…

my little heart crash and my tears wanted to drop but they can’t find the way out of my eyes… being sad and left alone.. i journey my way through those spikes of torturement.. for the very 1st time i felt so left alone and so useless.. all i’ve memorize for the 4hours seems to disappear into thin air.. without any luck and final chances to complete all my answers correctly, i handed up the paper with regret…

after that day onwards, i learnt my lesson to find out what test on which day… and i tried my best to study as hard as i could.. sacrificing my sleeping hours and eating hours… i went through all test with a smile even though i knew i should put more effort towards my 1st test.. and right now there’s nothing can be done except facing the music by recieving my papers starting from this monday… i know my marks will be dreadfully terrible compare to other students..

despite of all the exams, my face ended up to be an ugly duckling or should i describe myself as ugly monster… pimples and swallon eyes… you might not even recognize me.. plus last night after celebrating my ‘Merdeka’ day by hanging out with my bf in town… my left eye hurt and it swallon with that particular pain whenever i close my eyes…i saw my bf had this eye thing problem before.. it was not cause of lack of sleep but the terribly weather.. but yet im greatful for having my little swallon eyes smaller than his last time..

and i’ve read xin yi’s blog, seems like hui ling has gone off to UPM.. and i didn’t get to wish her Good Bye… but i know she will understand my situation where i was busy studying… *hugs* hope she can read this… wish you all the best… love ya… mwackx..